Oh what a feeling....

It's such a great feeling to be rejected. It really is.
What?
You say I'm being sarcastic?
Well I guess you got me there.

I think I just need to stop think positively about everything. I need to stop thinking about the future in a good light, cause nothing I ever think/daydream about ever happens. You think you meet someone perfect for you, and then their ex-boyfriend has to come back into the picture. Oh, and you're too aggressive about meeting each other. But you're only doing it because you just want to meet up with them, and since both of you are busy during the week and live across the Hudson River from each other it can't just be spontaneous, so you have to plan it ahead of time. This girl seriously met any and all requirements that I've ever had for any girl. The only thing that was missing was meeting up. I mean, I really thought this time things would work out. But, maybe it's that I'm so desperate to meet someone that I was having delusional thoughts. I don't know. It just sucks. And when this type of shit happens it compounds all the crap that I've dealt with this year, and just gets me depressed.

Honestly, the only overwhelmingly good thing that's happened to me recently is that I got a new car and it was the one I wanted. Nothing else has been overall that amazing. My life has pretty much sucked lately. It hasn't been horrible, but it's been so dull and unexciting that I just get more and more depressed.

I probably should've just stayed in Maryland, and not come back home. Yea, I know, I don't know if I'd be happy there either, but things aren't that great for me right now.

I'm in need for something big to happen. My life needs a jumpstart, cause it keeps on fucking stalling out.