Why I'm Not Where I Want To Be

I'm about a month away from finishing student teaching, and really have enjoyed it. So, barring some large failure on mine or the university's part, I will be on my way career wise.

Socially, I'm still not where I want to be. It seems things get better, then fall apart. Our maybe it's my perception of how my social life is. I have several friends, good friends at that, but I still don't have that close-knit group that I had 3 years ago at college. While it's nice to have the freedom to do things when/wear I want, I still crave knowing that there's a good chance that some people want to do stuff with me almost all the time. But I guess that's one of the great things about college, and one of the bad things about leaving that area. It would also help if I had a companion as well, but seeing how my track record has been lately, well I doubt that will be happening soon.

On that note, I just want to say that I seem to have the ability of being interested in people who aren't interested in me, and vice versa. And I also seem to sabotage my own attempts at meeting people, in one capacity or another. I know I can do it, it's just that I haven't been able to find my groove in a long time, plus my inability to read signs/signals/shit like that doesn't help. I guess I'm screwed eh?